Horrification

June 13 / 96
Wow, today was the last official day of grade 10. It's really freaky to think of everything I've gone through (what, like a crush an obsession that lasted the entire year... whatever 15-year-old self, try CHILDBIRTH!) in grade 10. Lots of people had their first kisses! Not me thought. Oh well, my time will come. It's so depressing to think that a whole year went by and nothing really happened (uhhh I thought you went through a lot?) to me! Well, I guess you could count the "Ian thing" (ha! we "went out" for a total of fifty minutes or something ridiculous) but that wasn't much. Somewhere, there is a guy for me. I just don't know who he is! I hope I can meet him before I turn 16. When I turn 16, it's going to be a big deal. I want to have a huge bash. Like that will happen though! I better be kissed before I turn 16. I do not want to be "16 and never been kissed" I would just cry. (It turns out that I was and I didn't cry) I want a man. Maybe I'll meet a guy this summer as I travel across the country? You never know! It could happen. Please let it!

Oh my. It appears that I was totally boy-crazy and wanted to have a boyfriend pretty badly. Sadly, this theme continues throughout a large number of my journal entries throughout the years. How humiliating! I'm so glad that I have a wonderful husband to love me. Yeesh, imagine if I was still in my boy-crazy ways?? Agh. Justin, I love you!