No more Negativity

I have a problem. That problem is the reason for my brief absence from blogging. I will explain it to you, because I feel like I have come to terms with it, now, several days later.

I play basketball. I love playing basketball. I have played basketball at a very competitive level. I, now, play basketball in women's league - not very competitive. My problem, I think that I somehow forgot to tel my brain that because the level of play has changed, I need to change my attitude. I admit, rather sheepishly, that I have an attitude problem. I like to play basketball, however, I like to win. When my team loses... I stop having fun. I stop having fun so much that I get angry and frustrated and begin to look a little bit like a lunatic. This past weekend, we had playoffs. My team had done pretty well throughout the season, though we never were very consistent. In playoffs, we faced some stronger teams and didn't rise to meet the challenge. Our semi-final game featured me fouling out, losing my temper (on a few occasions) and leaving the gym to (literally) cool-off. Brutal!

It has recently ocurred to me that I am now a mother, a teacher and (gasp) a grown-up. Elizabeth, get a grip! I admonished myself on several occasions and, if I could, I'd give myself a swift kick in the rear. The reason that I haven't blogged is that I have been so surrounded b my own negativity about this, that I felt all I would do would be to complain - and that's not right. I am "fearfully and wonderfully made", so I should act like it!
Thanks for listening!